ps : Ignore my noob english .




What's dream ? . What's ambition ? . everyone have a dream , an ambition . They go for it . But where's mine ? . Where's my dream ? . What's my dream ? . Where's my ambition ? . What's my ambition ? . I don't know .. Maybe just like the result of the 2 quiz I did few weeks ago in facebook . You will be a garbage man. Your future job is a cleaner . I did 2 quiz about 'what's your future job ' . 一个不一定准，可是两个。。可以说它一定不准吗？...


Last time my mom said this to me . ' your vocal exam . sure fail derhs larhs ' . Just now went vocal class . Even my teacher also say ' 你没得救了。。' . 他们都对我失去希望了。。我没有老师的支持，家人的支持。。你觉得我可以成功吗？一个人，之所以能成功，是因为他们有家人的支持，朋友的支持。。而我，什么也没有。你觉得我对自己还会有信心吗？没了信心。。还能做到最好吗？还能成功吗？. What I think now is .. just let it fail . since teacher also said I 没得救了 .. why should I force myself to practice till so tired .. and the result come out is fail . isn't it just wasting my time , my energy? . Just let it fail and stop learning vocal . I no nid so stress .. can help save my parents money . I can play more . isn't it the best ? ... Example like . 一位很专业的医生，说那位病人没得救了。。你觉得它还有的救吗？


Everyone think that I'm a happy-go-lucky person . even the quiz ii did in facebook about ' what your attitude say about you ' . my result is happy-go-lucky -.- . no matter what I do also cincai larh cincai larhs . I don't care anything . even my school result . I'm always like . ' aiyah . fail again ~ ' or see the marks . and nothing happen . Not like other people will like . ' AHH ! I failed my what what subject . T_T ' or 'I get 33 marks for my what what subject . ahhhhh ! ' when exam . mostly people will like .. 'tomorrow BM arhs ! sei lorhs . scare' but I'm like 'BM only marhs . sure fail 1 larhs . ' I seems like I don't care about my result . Don't care about the exams . actually am I really don't care about it? .. Of cause not . Don't say exams larhs . exams I really not so care lols. But not like what you all think . I care abit also larhs .

Imma just a damn failure . I'm useless . No one needs me anyways . I can't do anything too :)
I can't do what I think . I can't do what I want . Just like last holiday . June derhs holidays . mid year holidays? . anything . The day before holiday start . I told myself must do many many many accounts exercise rights ? . But till last I did nothing . rights? If you got read my blog . you will know larhs . I'm just damn useless . I can't concentrate in everything . only know play play play play play . haihs .. you think I want ? I'm just too useless till I don't want this to happen also can't . Useless freak .

If like you are born to be this way . and everything happen are just 命中注定 .. why should we live ? . Our life had been control by God . we can't change it . It's meaningless . It's happen to be this way . You're born to be like this . what can you do ? . You can't do anything . Example like me . I'm born to be a lazy person . What can I do ? . Ya . I can change it . Don't be so lazy . But if I change to be a hardworking person . It's also 命中注定 . I don't know how to say what I think . It's like .. ermm .. okays . I'm born to be a lazy person . Then I changed to be a hardworking person . It's also controlled by God . Maybe God early had planned this . He planned to make me a lazy person . Then he planned I'll change to be a hardworking person . It's all controlled by God . aiyah. never mind . I know you all won't understand what I'm saying . or what I'm trying to say . Forget it . Get it or not also never mind larhs . I don't know how to say larhs . gaahh .

Don't compare me with other peoples please . I know they are good . We're TOTALLY a different person . Cause they're good . and make me looks bad . If you take a worse peoples compare with me . of cause I'm better :) . Example like . I looks thin among those fatty . but I looks fat among those skinny . Just don't compare . It doesn't make sense .