hohohohoho ~ 2dae ii break my own record !! . my sejarah paper 2 .. jiao bai juan !!! . 1st time siol !! walao .. ii oni wrote 4 words .. dhat is .. Goh Ching Pei 4P5 . LOL ! XD . laz time is objective and subjective in 1 paper derh marh.. ii oni blank subjective .. objective still qort do .. so nort counted as jiao bai juan F3 . but dhis time ! seperate lurhs ! so .. is jiao bai juan lurh .. 1st time jiao bai juan larhs T_T !! haihs .. nort ii dun wan do .. is ii dunnoe how do .. call me cincai write sumtinq .. idk what can write too ? -_- . so ii just leave it empty . aiks .. 2 and a half hrs . damn fking sian lorhs ! ii slept for 2 hrs -_- . 1st half hr never slp . after recess 1 period ii oni start sleep ~ .. slp slp slp .. slp and wake and slp bck . rofls . 2 and a half hours . reali damn fucking long siax .. nothing to do summore -.-. oni can slp .. end jor .. here pain dere pain rofl . sit till my pigu oso pain jor D: .
aiks .. tml econs paper 2 and science paper 2 -_- . ii tink .. imma gonna blank econs paper 2 too? -_- !! nooooooo ! argh ! . but no choice . idk how do zzz . science paper 2 .. mayb still can do 1 question? xD . F3 . dhis term exams .. really gg lurhs larhs ! .. gg .. gg .. gg .. gg .. help meeeeeeee !
if my sejarah can pass dhis time ~ dhis world really got miracle lurhs !! xPP ! . bleahs ! . ciaos lurhs :D x33 .

eeeeeeeeeeeeee . ii tink imma really gonna fail my maths dhis time D: . dhe 1st times ~ T_T . really siax . so hard .. ii almost empty whole paper -_- . only did few questions . and those questions oso simply do derh zzz . dhe graph . oso simply draw 1 -_- . gg lurhs . dhis term exams really gg lurhs !! oh my gawd !!! . argh ! tml sejarah paper 1 & 2 ~ tml is my sleep dayy :DD . xDD . aihs ..

ytd midnite . chatted with someone ii just knew in audi who's from sg for almost 2 hrs !! ohmymama -_- . 12.30am ++ chat till 2.30am ++ . ii bet he pok gai soon? @_@ . :x . he said sg call msia 1 mins $0.50 . 1 hrs $30 . 2 hrs $ 60 ?! . = RM 120 ?! ohmygod >< . sorry D: . but is he wanna call me derhs . nort ii call him call me derhs :x . aiks .. ii sms wif him also very exp siax ._. . so faz fone gonna bo lui liaos D: . sobs ..

neewayz .
Happy Birthday Suay (: . May all your dreams & wishes come true :D

ALBEE WAITING FOR THE NEXT HOLIDAY !! ~

sian larh . sick agn zzz . whyie always exam sure sick 1? and always is after holidays derhs exams zzz . diao . tml nid qo bck school exams again T_T . seriously . actually i'm damn lazy to do those exam paper =.= . like normal doing homework lidat . zzz . damn lazy to do it . walao ? 1st time qort dhis feeling . dunnoe whyie -.- . it's like when teacher give ue a homework to do . and ii don't feel like doing dhe homework zzz . am ii really lazy till lidat? zz . walao ...........

nights lurhs . (: . 1 more week ! PMR HOLIDAY !! FASTER LAI FASTER LAI !! ARGH !!

wee ~ went thomasjack shou mai hui ytd marhs . damn shuang ! woohoo ! finally can see my beloved xiao dong lao shi xD . miss him lots ! x] . ard 3.30pm . my dad fetch me and my sis qo sg wang . wan book place xD . but dhen reach dere ard 4pm . qort dhe wert .. yang guang shao nan wert derhs -.- . dhen cant book larh . stand dere awhile .. wait it finish . dhen we book place for peimin and maki . infront orhs ^^ . keke . ii saw ming can chris dere . but cant get dhe chance to talk to dhem . cz ii nid ba wei xD . ard 5pm dhey reached jor . saw chlody and another girl dere too O_O . forgot what's dhe girl name ady . ps -_- . dhen ii saw jess , hy and ij passby at dhe mcd dere LOL . met jennifer dere . one of my facebook friend . and she's a TJ fans too ^^ . although she don't recognise me . but she recognise my sis LOL . cz my sis and her chat b4 in facebook o.o . but ii didn't xD . so she dunnoe me . but ii know her muahahahahah . it was fun ^^ .
ii knew xiao dong lao shi ady saw us whn he just came out from backstage ^^ he keep look at us but always just 瞄一下 only . :x . ii think zhe yao recognise us too o.o . he qort smile at me rofls . xiao dong lao shi still purposely throw poster for peimin . mayb cos he saw her dun hav a poster? :x . eeeeeeeeeee . jealous D: . x]] .
whn qo up stage let dhem sign album damn happy ! . cz can talk to xiao dong lao shi ^^ . although cant talk long but still i'm happy ! :DD . zhe yao damn funneh ! . after he signed my album . he put his hand on my album o.o . don't wanna gib me -.- . dhen ii look at him . and he look at me . for ard 30 sec? -_- . dunnoe wert to do -_- . at last . shaked hand with him and qo down lurhs LOL . xiao dong lao shi nv shake hand with me T_T . but she shake hand wif my sis !! argh ! my sis say horhs . dhen didn't sake hand with other ppl o.o . lol ? so zhe yao only shake hand with me? xD . and we 四目交接 for 30 secs LOL . don't shot me arhs XDD !! .

paiseh lurhs . cant get a clear pics -_- . all blur blur derhs .. dunnoe whyie siax ._.


Jack & Thomas . support forever ! ^^ .



Jack a.k.a zhe yao :D .


Thomas a.k.a xiao dong ^^ .




dhis pic . xiao dong lao shi looks like watching at my camera right?! xD .








zhe yao really a 汗宝宝 siax . see almost every pics . he also wiping his sweat LOL . xD .

Hi xiao dong lao shi !! xDD .






dhis pic zhe dao looks like watching at me camera right ?! xDD .




Hohoho ! dancer lin shi bao fo jiao !! now oni practice dance ! xPP .


Tai yang yu - TJ :D .


Hou lian pi - TJ

ps. middle qort 1 part missed -.- . cos dhey threw poster marh ! ii wan catch poster . so ii stopped record awhile -_- . but still . ii cant get a poster D: !! .



Ni kan bu dao - TJ

Thanks Jennifer for dhis video :) . ii recorded dhis sonq too actually . but ii accidently deleted -_- . but luckily . jennifer post dhis sonq on her facebook o.o . so ii can get it ! and make it perfect ! muahahahha xDD . thanks :) .

hoho !! ~ tml 东与哲首卖会 !! of cz i'm going :D . we whole class going support ! haha . except xiao rong and ying wei . due to exams . dhey wanna study . dun wanna qo D: . aiks .. but nehmind ! . still qort 4 of us ! :D . xiao dong lao shi ! must zhu yi see us lorhs dhis time ! don't like laz time . oni saw ppl look like us . -_- . wait for us orhs ^^ . so excited lurhs xPP .

neewayz .. cant up for these few days . really sorry . D: . ii don't want too T_T . but ii really cmi . aihs .. but ! albee gonna up up up up up up lurhs ! . ii promise ! . ii promise ! girls <3 ! :D boys ROAR ! .

aihs . school reopen soon lurhs T_T . so fast .. dhis whole week . like usual .. still bo study dao anytinq ._. . sians . dhis term maths gg lurhs larhs . D: . dhis term sure will be dhe 1st time ii fail my maths ! omq omq omq ! charm liao larhs . aiks ..
dhat sohai . jio me qo sunway lagoon wif her -.- . and her LAS friends . ben lai she said . after finish exam derhs tuesday qo . cz skul days nort much ppl marh . ii dun wan qo . so ii lie her say school day. my mom don't let me go . dhen she said nehmind . chg time . chg PMR dhat week derhs holidae . ii lied her . said after PMR dhat holidae still qort exam. my mom don't let me qo . dhen she said nehmind . we can chg time for ue . ue tell me whn ue can qo . we qo dhat time . zzz . sians . ii dun wan qo out wif her larhs F5 . sit wif her in class oso can die d . still wan me qo hang out wif her . ARGH ! summore she invite all her LAS friends . all idk derhs !! oni few ii know zzz . sian larhs !! qo wif ppl idk == . wdhh ?! . now dunnoe how push zzz . diaos .

最近，我也不知道自己在做些什么 ==
好像有点神经似的。。
吓到很多人。。
还搞到人家想带我去看医生 -_-
对不起哦。。
我真的没有神经病！

最近，有跟你说了一些些。。
你有时会来跟我聊天。。
不知该开心还是怎样。。==
我。。好想念你。。

我。。
不知为你留了多少泪。。
不知为你失眠了多少天。。
不知为你抽了多少支烟。。
我好想为你戒烟。。
可也是你让我吸上瘾。。
什么鬼东东啊？！

每晚睡觉前都会想起你，
每天没事做独自一个人时，
也会想起你。。
然后眼泪就不受控制的。。
流下来。。
我很讨厌这种感觉！！

我的眼泪好坏蛋哦！
每天都要跑出来。。
怎么也控制不了。
我拜托你。。
听话一点。。可以吗？！

我的心很小，很軟。。
曾經裝過很多人，然後擠滿了..
把他們趕走，剩你一個..
有時候，偶爾心痛，卻一個人受..
和朋友傾訴也不願讓你擔心..

表面上的不在乎，實際上是怕受傷..
眼淚流下的瞬間，才知道我都很在意..
自暴自棄，自甘墮落，也還是一樣.
所以我寧願自己是無情的..
再也不要這樣 !

今後和我的心說再見.
我不再有心..
花心-我唯一的選擇..
至少這樣我會好過些..

過往的心已經死了，因爲受傷了..
我不知自己會變到什麽樣..
也不知自己會在某年某月某一天傷害你們..
對你們只有抱歉..
對不起..

我喜歡狂笑，因爲可以掩飾傷悲..
不哭，不代表我不痛 ...

For some reason, today feels so difficult and exhausting
I hold my pillow closer as I sit alone in my room
I fidget with my phone as my heart
For some reason feels empty today
The suddenly ringing phone surprises me
I hear your voice, asking me if I ate today
Although at times, they annoyed me, today those words feel different
And all the forgotten promises I've made come flooding back to me

Although at times, I hurt you because of my wrong decisions
You quietly watched over me from afar
Although I'm still a young and clumsy child
I think I understand now
The meaning of your silent prayers

What should I do? My heart is still so small
If I let go of your hand, I'm not sure if I can make it without you
I don't think I'm ready yet
And I'm scared

I was too shy to express this to you clearly
I truly love you..

5.40am :P .

yellow :D . 2dae woke up late larh . no map for me to spam jor ._. . so qort time come bloq now lurhs ^^ . hehe xD . ii just solo-ed 70% of dhe scar boss niax rofls . ard 50mins -_- . ii killed so lonq .. it oni giv me 200k exp niax . zzz . aiks .. but horhs .. dhat bear .. wo yue kan ta yue cute LOL XD . ii fell in love with it within dhis 1 hr time ! xD . reali so cute xP .

hao narhs . dhis morninq chit-chatted wif my mom and my aunt :D . haha . although dhey're ' si lai ' xD . but kinda fun chatting wif dhem lols. x]] . dunnoe how siax .. suddenly chat till about monneh d . rofls . dhen say tio many tinqs larh . say be teacher oso nice . student holidae . teacher oso holidae . kinda relax . dhen say piano teacher oso nice . 1 study rm200+ 1 day 6 students . 1 student 1hr . 1 day oni word 6 hrs . can earn Rm1200 d . 1 week RM8400 !! omq ! LOL !
dhen suddenly chat dao beauty -.- . dhey are like keep staring at me ._. . my aunt suddenly said actually peipei oso very lenglui derh . just her spec kakacaucau . next time biq jor must qo do laser . ROFLMFAOS ! ZADOU LARHS -.- . ii whr qort leng siax zzz . no spec oso no leng larhs lmfaos ! .

errhem . ii tink imma gonna stop here today o.o . ii know it's kinda early F3 ( for me ) nort my style xD . but tml ii nid wake up early get spooky map and spam larhs -_- . aihs .. bo bian ~ D: . ciaos ~ niqhts (: .

Original

I don’t undertand what is your thinking? Sometimes I feel that you are love me. But sometimes

I cant feel you love me. I really very confuse and helpless. I dunno I cry how many times

because of you; I dunno my heart get hurt how many times because of you; I dunno every night

I cant sleep because of you; I duuno I sad until every night went out until very late bacause of

you????????? Do u think it is fair to me? Why you want put me in this kind of situation? I’m feel

I’m really very cheap, stupid……….. I just hope u can help me or stand at my side think of me,

just a little for me that is enough. I wont ask you spend all your time for me. If I can control my

heart, my mind, my whole body……. I will thank GOD!! Because if I got the “power”, I wont in

this situation. I can choose who I want to love, not my feeling help me to choose who I will love.

My feeling cant control by myself. If continue like that, I will crazy…. Why all people know I’m

sad, but you dunno? Or you prefer you dunno anything? This Sunday will be the last day for me

& you if you still dun want to contact me. I know u got trouble, but it just an excuses to dun want

to contact me. At last, I just can say, we met at the wrong timing. Maybe I really not suitable for

you. That why all is my fault. Sorry for gave you so many trouble and thanks for gave me a lot of

memory. I will appreciate it.

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I don’t undertand what are you thinking? Sometimes I feel that you love me. But sometimes
I cant feel that you love me. I really very confuse and helpless. I don't know I cried how many times because of you; I don't know my heart get hurt how many times because of you; I dont' know how many nights I cant sleep because of you.
Do you think that it's fair to me? Why you wanna put me in this kind of situation? I feel I’m so cheap, stupid……….. I just hope that you can help me or stand by my side thinking of me, just a little for me that is enough. I didn't ask you to spend all of your time for me. If I can control my heart, my mind, my whole body……. I will thanks GOD!! Because if I got the “power”, I won't have to be in this situation. I can choose who I want to love, not my feeling help me to choose who I want to love.
I can't control my feeling . If it continue like that, I sure will crazy…. Why everyone know I’m sad, but not you ? Or you prefer to act like you don't know anything? This Sunday will be the last day for me & you if you still don't want to contact me. I know you got trouble, but it just an excuse . I only can say, we met at the wrong time. Maybe I really not suitable for you. It's all my fault. Sorry for giving you so many troubles and thanks for giving me a lot of memories. I will appreciate it.

LOL . just too bored . and corrected it xD.
neewayz . my cousin came back from kampar :) . we chit-chatted at her hse after dance class 2dae . and her friend . happyy time :) . chatted so many things ! . having jokes . kritik around . haha . so 38 xD . but so fun ! :D .

dhat day watched where got ghost wif my sis ! . yarh right finally haha ! waited 1 weeks . but it kinda dissapointed me . cos ii tot it'll be very very funny . but nort so funneh actually . except for 1 part . really lmfao weihs ! still recommended :) .
watched G-force dhe next day (: . ermm .. overall nort bad :D . but dhe genuine piqs are reali so damn freaking cute weihs ! omqq !! cooooool :DD . haha .

holidays :) . tml start spamming . will on dhe 5 days 2x exp . and spam for 5 days . continuously @___@ ! . sure very tired =/ . but .. bo bian larhs aihs .. so .. ii tink i'm nort gonna post anytinq for dhe next .. 5days ? cz imma realli bo eng ! haha xD .

ciaos ~ :) .

yellow babes xD . ytd derhs account paper .. gosh ! . dunnoe how to do -.- . although ii did studied a little bit . but dhen still dunnoe how to do -.- wdhh D: . whole paper 80% . ii think ii only can get 10%+ . or mayb single digit -_- .
1st question . buku catatan pertama . those documents documents . ii ady dunnoe how to see ady -.- . but of cz . still qort some ii know larhs xP . junal am . merakod liabiliti aset modal blablabla derhs . ii ady dunnoe how to do ! -.- . but for jurnal jualan , jurnal belian , jurnal pulangan belian ii know how to do larhs xP . till buku tunai . all oso dunnoe how to do -_- . dunnoe dhe butir should write wert .. shud write in debit or kredit -.- . dao lejar .. no nid say . cincai do abit -_- . damn cincai LOL ! xD .
question 2 . penyata pendapatan , kunci kira-kira . as usual , ii brought dhe formula in LOL . but as usual , although ii have dhe formula . but ii still dunnoe how to do -_- . zzz . just follow dhe formula . cincai write T_T . ii cant finished dhe kunci kira-kira D: . nort enuf time ! argh !
question 3 . kunci kira-kira T format . ii sos brought in dhe formula too xD . but still same larhs . dunnoe how do ! rofls . and still cincai do >< . ii did finished it :D . but ii guess . all wrong? LOL =/ . dhe wert kerja derhs . ii cincai write niax . walao . dunnoe which shud minus which shud add pun zzz . gnd man ! . blur dao siao !!
question 4 . pelupusan . ii did . 1 akaun oni LOL . just write baki b/b . how much oni . rofls . at least better dhen nv do ryte? x] . dunnoe how to do larhs !!!!!! .
question 5 . - empty - lalala ~ din do -.- . no time to do . dunnoe how do . LOL . eww . gonna work hard in paper 1 ady ! . ii dun wanna fail my accounts T______T !! .

dhat english essay . part A . dhe directed writing ! . write about dhe influenza A H1N1 . wahzai ! . ii wrote 350+ words :DD . ii know . for ue all . mayb it's nort lonq -_- . but for me ! it's freaking long ! :D . usually . my essay . on can write till 150 + words -.- . so . it's lonq for me ! :D . break my record xD .
for dhe BM paper 2 . omq man LOL . seperti biasa larhs . novel tak buat . bina ayat tak buat . komsas tak baca . banyak soalan tak tau macam mana jawab . tetapi agnes arhs ! . apa lu buat ni ? mengapa jawab sikit je ?! . she told me she oni did dhe rumusan . pemahaman 3rd question nv do . komsas oni did 1st and 2nd question -.- . bina ayat din do . tatabahasa oni did 2 part . novel oso din do . walao ? ue sot jor ke ? . more yeng dhen me liaos . mengapa macam ni ? saya dah kira untuk kamu . kamu telah hilang . 60+ % -.- . jiayou barhs (: .

chinese zuo wen lehhs . still okay okay larhs . nothing to say about it haha .
luckily 2dae holidae . arbo ii will be sitting for dhe maths paper 2 now !! omg !! . ii dun even know how to do for dhe last few chapters =/ . delayed 1 week . so dhat ii can at least study ABIT . haihs .. kerajaan treat those babi so good -.- . but we qort advantage too ! haha !

dhis coming raya holidae . mayb imma gonna spam for 5 days . use dhe 5 days 2x exp dhat ii get it laz time + my rinq . should be cool :) . but ii scare bo map =/ . scare my mama wanna go out gai gai too D: . actually PMR dhat 1 week oso can spam derhs . but my rinq ady expired jor . bo hua liaos . >< .

dhat day . tuesday ii tink . went to school . ii saw a girl leg . kena 压 by dhe car tayar .. aw man .. ii bet it was damn freaking pain . shocked me ! . ii just came down from van . look straight . she came down from her car too :) . ii walked 1 step . and she shouted suddenly ! so damn loud LOL =x . she scared me -_- . ii looked at her . wondering what's happening to her ? dhen ii saw her leg . feels like .. ohmygawd ! see liao oso heartpain >< . sure very very very pain .. D: . idk how dhe driver drive -.- . whyie can kena her leg ? . dhe car door didn't even closed . and dhe driver drive forward? -.- . but ii oso dunnoe . whyie her leg is beside dhe tayar whn she came down from dhe car ? . shudn't it be infront of dhe tayar? lol ? weird =/ . after dhat . what happen to her ? idk lurhs . cz i'm nort as 8 as those 8 po . keep on standing dere and watch till she went away . rofls .

yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo ~

today bo time write bloq lurhs . tml account paper ._. .
ii nid to study everything ! understand everything ! rmb everything ! by today !! argh !

ACCOUNTS PAWNED ME ! .

neewayz ~

Happy burfdae Eric Lao po :DD .
18 sui liaos ~~ hami pun boleh buat jor xDD !

OMFG MAGIC ._. !! WDF ?!

从一开始，我就不应该认识你。
认识你，是我死亡游戏的开始。。

在我认识你不久，你告诉过我你有两个女朋友。。
过后，你还叫我做你的女友，虽然你已经有了女朋友。
从那一刻开始，我早已知道，你。。也是那种男生。。
可是。。我。。好笨。。好笨。。
尽然会喜欢上你。。然后爱上你。。
笨到尽然会相信你的甜言蜜语。。
为什么？。。

你有了女友，竟然还可以背着你女友叫我做你的女友，
如果我接受了你。。
我不能确保你不会在我背后做同样的事情？
可是我还是接受了。。

你是我第一个在网络世界里，
让我真正爱上的。。
应该也是最后一个吧？
或许是唯一一个？
我不知道。。

我承认。。
我曾经是个大家都认同的 playboy ..
可是。。我这次是认真的 ！

因为你，我再次爱上了，
因为你，我再次相信爱情，
但。。只维持了一天；
因为你，我的心。。
再次碎了。。
但。。那不只是一天。。
而是很多天。
因为你，我的眼泪。。
再也停不下来。
因为你，我知道什么叫心痛；
因为你，我知道什么叫失恋；
因为你，我知道什么叫寂寞；
因为你，我知道吃醋是什么感觉；
也因为你，我才知道失去。。是什么感觉。。
原来。。那是真的很痛苦。。很痛苦的。。

我一直逼我自己，不要想你。。
忘记你对我的好，记住你对我的坏。。
忘记我爱你，记住我恨你！
可是。。我做不到。。
我真的做不到。。
甚至用抽烟来麻醉我自己。。
还尝试变成同性恋 ？！
为什么？

这是老天给我的一项考验吗？
为什么这么难？
我过不了这关。。
怎么办？
老天爷。。可以把它简单化吗？
我真的办不到。。

我。。
真的不知道自己在做些什么。。
也不知道自己做过了什么。。
更加不知道自己应该做些什么。。
才能让我们回到从前。。

我的头脑。。
叫我不要回想从前。。
忘记过去。。
等待未来。。
可是我的心。。
叫我记住每一个美好的回忆。。
就算那是短暂的。。

我自己。。
毁了一切。。
很好笑。。对吧？
为什么？
我不知道。。

我。。
很想知道。。
你到底在想什么？
我。。
很想知道。。
你心里真正想的是什么？
我后悔我做过的一切。。
可是一切都挽回不了。。

不要问我什么是爱。我不知道。。
因为。。我的世界再也没有爱。

考试。。非常难。。超难。。
比平时做的练习难很多倍！
比之前的考试难很多倍！
我根本无法作答。。
我无法好好地想答案！
因为我的脑里只有你。。。
我想不到答案。。
什么都想不到。
只想到你。。
满脑袋都是你！
想来想去都还是你！
怎么会这样？！

你。。
到底对我做了些什么？
到底下了什么毒药给我？
到底有什么神奇的力量？
让我可以在这么短的时间内，
喜欢上你，甚至爱上你！
还在这么超短的时间内,
就分手了.. =.= .

我。。
真的从没试过爱上一个不是我真正认识的人。。
什么东东啊？！
为什么会这样？！
为什么啦 ?!?!?!?

我真的好恨你哦 !!
可是真的好爱好爱你哦 !
什么东西嘛 ?!?!?!?
我真的好希望我能很恨很恨很恨很恨你 !!
救命啊！！

在我眼里..
你是我的一切..
可是在你眼里..
我应该连灰尘都不如吧?

你．．
还会记得我们的诺言吗？．．．

你总说，
你了解我 , 你真的了解我..
是吗?
可是我觉得你根本一点都不了解我 !
你了解的只是表面上的我..
而不是真正的我..
你根本不知道我真正在想些什么..
我其实真正要的是什么 ..
这一切..你什么都不知道..

诺言, 忘了吧 !
我叫你忘了我们的承诺..
是因为我不想再次受到伤害。。
不希望我们之间还有什么东西。。

我。。
超想把你忘了 ！
不想见到你。。不想跟你讲话。。
其实都是假的。。
我只是在逼我自己把你忘了。。
可是。。我真的做不到 ！！
我。。好想念你。。



Smoke . Is the best way to heal your unhappiness . Addicted (: .

女孩给男孩发了条短消息：如果家里穷困潦倒到只有一碗稀饭面对着我们两人，你会把稀饭里的米给我吃吗？

男孩回消息：这还用说吗？但是我认为一个真正爱那个女孩的男孩，就不应该让自己心爱的女人过如此生活。

女孩回消息：可有一个人的回答是这样！他说，不！我会把整碗的米连同稀粥都给她喝。这短短的对话会不会感动所有

女人我不知道，可我却被深深打动。

男孩回消息：那么连这一碗稀粥也没有，那个男人会怎么做呢？！或者有没有想到那一碗稀饭女孩吃了是不是还肚子饿

呢？！

女孩认为，男孩应该像那个男孩那样回答：不！我会把米和稀粥都给你喝！才是真正完美，标准，唯一的答案。

因为男孩没有按女孩的意思回答好这个问题，女孩和男孩背对背睡了一夜，男孩几次想拥她入睡都被女孩拒绝。

上天有时总是有些不尽人意。

后来女孩和男孩走到一起的时候，由于种种原因，他们真的遇上了类似于只有一碗稀饭喝的日子。

那天，男孩悄悄地给女孩留个言：亲爱的，我吃过了，桌上给你留了碗稀饭，你把它喝完。

女孩喝完那晚稀饭，小憩一会的时候。男孩从外面回来，给女孩带回来她喜欢吃的羊肉串，水果，奶茶。

男孩对女孩说，他找了份临时工作，刚挣的钱，老板答应先付一部分工资。说完还拿出口袋的钱在女孩面前晃了晃。

“亲爱的慢慢吃！我已经在外面吃过了。”说完还做了个调皮的鬼脸。

在最困难的那段日子，女孩依旧快乐的幸福着，男孩倒好像由于工作劳累，身体有些不适。

后来，男孩有了工作，女孩和男孩对他们未来的幸福充满美丽的憧憬。

女孩喜欢看电视，看到电视中报道多年前在一场大地震中，一位母亲和孩子被压在废墟下，母亲的奶水被孩子吃尽时，

母亲咬开了自己手上的血管，用自己的鲜血喂孩子，数天后，人们终于扒开废墟下的母子，母亲已经血流殆尽离开了人

世，嘴角的粘着母亲鲜血的孩子带着天真的笑容，红嘟嘟的鲜艳小脸蛋获得了新生。

女孩问男孩，如果我们俩被压在废墟下，你会像那位母亲样用你的血液使我活下来吗？

男孩对女孩的言语间竟有些激动。他对女孩说不要老是有这样那样的怪念头好吗？你是我的女人，我会尽我所能的让我

的女人幸福，在任何你的生命和安全受到威胁的时候，我会不顾一切的保护好你。你是我的最爱，我也不允许你把种种不好的推测用到你的身上，亲爱的。

周末，一个阳光明媚的上午，男孩挽着女孩的手，兴冲冲地逛了一个上午，买了好多女孩喜欢吃的零食和她喜欢的衣服

走在回家的路上。

两个幸福的小人儿，再穿过一个路口，就能到达他们共同构筑的爱的小巢——他们幸福的小天堂。

男孩一手挽着女孩，一手拎着买来的东西，男孩在前，女孩在后，两人走在斑马线上，就要穿过马路了，突然一辆右转

弯车辆，直直地向离男孩一步之遥的后面的女孩疾速驶来，眨眼的功夫，汽车就要撞到女孩。

“砰！”的一声闷响后紧跟着汽车紧急刹车的声音。

一切来得那么突然，被撞者轻飘飘的飞向两米开外。路面上是一片刺眼的鲜血的红。

“不！不要！”由于惊吓刚刚回过神来的女孩，歇斯底里地凄惨叫声撞击着每个围观者的耳膜。

女孩明白，汽车本来是撞向她的，在常人来不及反应的一刹那间的零点几秒里，男孩却惊奇地把她推开了，自己倒在血

泊里。
女孩哭喊着扑到男孩身边，男孩浑身是血，女孩大声地呼唤着男孩名字，围观者说没用了，已经试过男孩没有呼吸了。

女孩不相信，继续呼唤着男孩的名字，男孩竟然奇迹般的睁开了眼睛，看了女孩一眼，带着安详地微笑，永远闭上了眼

睛。
女孩明白，男孩在生命的最尽头还在苦苦挣扎，拼尽最后一丝气力看到自己的亲爱的小女人安然无恙了，才放心地闭上

眼睛。

那是个多雨的季节，到处充满了潮湿，雨水把天地连成雾蒙蒙一片。

两个人构筑的爱情小巢，现在只剩下女孩一个人，女孩浮想起以前两人在一起的点点滴滴。

女孩后悔那次不该因为男孩没有按自己的意思回答她问题，背对着他睡了一夜，后悔男孩几次欲拥她入睡，都被她拒

绝。她现在好想紧紧的拥着男孩，把那一夜的背对背补回来，可是再也无法也不可能补回来。

女孩习惯了逛马路时，身边有一个人紧紧的握住她的手，不用担心那些川流不息的汽车。男孩总是自己走在有汽车的一

方让她走在远离汽车的另一边。女孩好想再抓住那种安全感，可是怎么抓也抓不住。

女孩睡觉前，习惯了，有人给她唱着歌讲着故事入睡，现在再也没有人为她唱歌讲故事，她总是难以入睡。

女孩睡觉时，喜欢踹被子，男孩总是在每一次她踹掉被子时及时的醒来给她重新盖好。现在那个人再也不能哪怕为她盖

一次被子。

女孩喜欢吃零食，男孩每次从外面回到家里总能给她个小谗猫带来惊喜，安慰她的小肚肚，现在她的小肚肚多少天再也

没有人安慰。

女孩喜欢吃瓜子，喜欢吃板栗，喜欢吃橘子，却不喜欢剥皮儿，女孩每次畅快淋漓的大吃特吃完瓜子，板栗，橘子后，

男孩的面前总是堆起一堆果皮山，现在由于剥皮吃那些东西太费劲，她好久没敢碰那些想吃不能吃的好东西。

女孩现在有太多的不习惯，她只能学着慢慢的把不习惯变成习惯。

女孩整理遗物时发现了一个献血证，上面写着男孩的名字。奇怪的是她从来不知道，男孩在一个月连续献了三次血，上

面献血的日期更让她震惊，她清楚地记得，永远也忘不了那段他们最艰苦的日子。她明白了那段日子男孩的身体为何那

么虚弱，明白了男孩“预付的工资”的含义，明白了男孩是用偷偷献血的换来钱给她买来她喜欢吃的东西。

女孩继续整理遗物时，发现了一份报纸，意外地发现那场大地震时，那位伟大的母亲就是男孩的母亲，那个幸运获得生

命的孩子就是男孩，而男孩又把这份幸运给了她。

女孩泪水涟涟。


omg .. so touching T_T . ii cried .. :x .

太阳雨- TJ 东于哲

CHORUS
曬一曬太陽
天氣晴朗 哦沙灘
溫暖的陽光 不會缺氧
(唷唷來來我飛起來)

暖暖的海洋
任意飛翔 多勇敢
彩虹伴隨的夢想 和我們一樣瘋狂

笑笑一笑的說
流一點汗算多也不算多
天天放假的說
一起玩耍不用想太多

你看 青春的夢
不知天高地厚
熱浪 緩緩升空
遊戲天空 就像你和我
(Say Hey Never Say Goodbye)

CHORUS
曬一曬太陽
天氣晴朗 哦沙灘
溫暖的陽光 不會缺氧
(唷唷來來我飛起來)

暖暖的海洋
任意飛翔 多勇敢
伴隨彩虹的夢想 和我們一樣瘋狂
(唷唷fly fly 來來我們一起飛起來)

diaos . tml cant go watch where got ghost jor zzz . friday oni go watch lurhs . ma de . waited so long . still nid wait agn zzz . my popo said tml she's nort at home . going hospital for a checkup . call us don go . take care grandpa . -.- . zzz . argh ! . still nid wait again ! . wdf . suak !

neewayz . 2dae play audi . damn tyco siol :x . combo x10 !! without hack ! omq . siao ! ii sot jor . my record is x7 oni . 2dae ii made a new record xD .


no chance oni . if chance sure can hit 1m score jor ! D: . regret T_T . whyie ii dun chance ~


lols. just my score . can win others 2 team score ady =/ .

and .. ii married in maple 2dae LOL xD . delayed 2 days ._. . invited 60 + ppls . but nort much ppl attend rofls . cos . almost half of dhem didn't get dhe invitation card LOL =/ . and some .. dunnoe wert happen to dhem . mayb dhey dunnoe how to go in dhe wedding hall ? -_- . went in dhe box . get 3 scrolls xD . 1 overall dex 60 % . 1 overall int 60 % . 1 helm def 60 % ._. . 3 scrolls oso ii hit tio derhs xD , but for fair . ii gave him dhe int and def scroll . :) .

最好的结局

传闻你和他的相遇
听说是多么美丽
而我的存在是多余

*听得太多也累了
我们之间也完了
别再继续纠缠不清

我不能放弃自己去讨好你
那不是我自己
如果你爱她就别再错下去

我不像你想像中的那么脆弱
分手已成了定局
在他发现之前忘了你

Repeat *

就为了我的名誉
就为了你的秘密
就请别让她哭泣

我不能放弃自己去讨好你
那不是我自己
如果你爱她就别再错下去

我不像你想像中的那么脆弱
分手是我的决定
在他发现之前忘了你
分离已是最好的结局


寂寞先生

你的笑容是恩惠　世界難得那麼美
於是追 要你陪　可惜本能終會將美麗汗水化成淚水

黑夜之所以會黑　叫醒人心裡的鬼
在遊說 在縈迴 在體內是什麼 在把我摧毀 再傷痕累累

我可以無所謂　寂寞卻一直掉眼淚
人類除了擅長頹廢　做什麼都不對　Oh … I’m not okay

我假裝無所謂　才看不到心被擰碎
人在愛情裡越殘廢　就會越多安慰　無論多虛偽

空虛並非是詞彙　能夠形容的魔鬼
它支配著行為　能擺脫寂寞我什麼都肯給　就像個傀儡

我可以無所謂　寂寞卻一直掉眼淚
人類除了擅長頹廢　做什麼都不對　Oh … I’m not okay

我假裝無所謂　才看不到心被擰碎
人在愛情裡越殘廢　就會越多安慰　無論有虛偽


退后

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后
並沒有更自由
酸酸的空氣
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
榨乾了回憶
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去
被順時針的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待續

想太多

你笑著說 他是朋友 但你眼中太溫柔
我的不安 那麼沉重 只有你不懂

他霸佔了你的心中 屬於我的角落
所以你說 我們 不是你和我

是我想太多 你總這樣說
但你卻沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也這樣說
這是唯一能 安慰我的理由

他霸佔了你的心中 屬於我的角落
所以你說 我們 不是你和我

是我想太多 你總這樣說
但你卻沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也這樣說
這是唯一能 安慰我的理由

我想我沒有 錯怪了什麼
雖然你不說 或許錯在我
太晚我才懂 愛了你太多

是我想太多 你總這樣說
但你卻沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也這樣說
這是唯一能 安慰我的理由


不够成熟

我想我還是不夠成熟
還達不到　你的要求
我真的沒有想的太多
只是懷念　你走以後

離開　難道真的是解脫
難道　真的要事過境遷了以後才懂

倔強說不痛　假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭　決不讓眼淚往下流
倔強說不痛　假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過　笑著和你揮揮手

我想我還是不夠成熟
還達不到　你的要求
我真的沒有想的太多
只是懷念　你走以後

＃離開　難道真的是解脫
難道　真的要事過境遷了以後才懂

倔強說不痛　假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭　決不讓眼淚往下流
倔強說不痛　假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過　笑著和你揮揮手
如果有一天　我們有緣再見
你會不會想起說過的永遠

倔強說不痛　假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭　決不讓眼淚往下流
倔強說不痛　假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過　笑著和你揮揮手


我知道

從來沒想過 不能再和你牽手
委屈時候沒有你 陪著我心痛
一切都是我 太過驕縱 以為你會懂
一直忘了說 我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然 分開的理由 我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以 即使到最后 還微笑著要我加油
我知道你還放不下我
才會 在離開時 閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中
其實 這份愛沒停過


從來沒想過 不能再和你牽手
委屈時候沒有你 陪著我心痛
一切都是我 太過嬌縱 以為你會懂
一直忘了說 我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然 分開的理由 我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以 即使到最后 還微笑著要我加油
我知道你還放不下我
才會 在離開時 閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中
其實 這份愛沒停過

曾經完整幸福的夢 在腦海里頭
我多希望你 還在我左右

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然 分開的理由 我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以 即使到最后 還微笑著要我加油
我知道你還放不下我
才會 在離開時 閉著眼沒有回頭
答應你 我會好好過
不讓 這些眼淚白流


保護色

想對你說的 讓他先說了 從此只能猜測
你流淚是因為快樂
想要給你的 他先給你了 從此只能負荷
寂寞和愛本來能分割
祝福你是我的保護色 專心扮演朋友的角色
在你們擁抱的那一刻 我心一分為二
欺騙你是我的保護色 甘心做個愛情的弱者
真愛不是就能逃的遠遠的 等待是我自責
路越走越曲折 不能回頭了 能伤害我的 都是我愛的
還保護什麼 還保護什麼
祝福你是我的保護色 專心扮演朋友的角色
在你們擁抱的那一刻 我心一分為二
欺騙你是我的保護色 甘心做個愛情的弱者
真愛不是就能逃的遠遠的 等待是我自責 爱你是甜的

I know some of the lyrics I posted before . But I just kinda like their lyrics . and feel like wanna post it again xD . haha . Just now listened 保護色 .. I cried . I don't know why -.- .

yo ! sian larhs zzz . tml kenort go watch 吓到笑 jor ! ma de . ben lai planned hao hao jor . tml ponteng sains tuition . dhen go 1U watch xia dao xiao wif my sis . but my mama said . she tml minta cuti zzz . still say tml she fetch me bck from tuition zzz wdf . she spoilt everything ! argh ! . make me monday oni can go watch niax . jipet . tml ii still nid to stay back zzz . for nothing == . cos ii nort going for sains tuition -.- . ii wanna cancle it . since every friday ii oso go watch movie -.- . oso ponteng == . oso nid stay back . whyie wan waste money -.- . just cancle it and go watch movie till 3 + dhen go home . just like came back from tuition lidat. mai same . ii can earn money summore rofls xD . sians . suak . fan zheng 2dae xiao wei said cik toh giving us acc extra class tml == . ii rejected derhs -_- . cz wan go watch movie marhs =x . now .. ii tink ii going dhe acc extra class lurhs . cos ii dun wan go tuition marhs -.- . and ii feel like wan learn acc too o.o . haihs .. sians ! . saturday morning 9-11am . ttc got acc extra class too -.- . dunnoe wan attend borh .. haihs .. ii wan learn acc derhs .. but lazy siax .. saturday .. so early summore -.- . swts .

dhat day at recess time at canteen met yeeteng . and she told me yee wen missed me LOL! xD . shocked niax F3 . yee wen is my primary school best fren. we from standard 1 noe each other jor .. till standard 5 .. standard 6 dunnoe whyie .. suddenly become stranger jor -.- . saw each other like dunnoe each other lidat . ii tot she forgot me jor derhs lorhs .. but yeeteng told me she missed LOL . so funny hahaha . shuang F3 .

Kao ! . ii 2dae damn LUCKY siax . kena bird shyt . dius . but luckily kena little bit oni niax == . on my school uniform . ii go wash . walao . kao ! . dam yuck 1 . ew . ehleh . pasieh . lazy write zzz . cyas :) .

yellow ;D . 2dae went mid watched 2 movies marhs . ytd ii did wrote :) . we 9.30am + went out jor . reached dere ard 10am . dhen straight go buy movie ticket lurhs . cos public holidae marh . scare later many ppl . but horhs .. went dere . few ppl oni niax lols. mayb still very early haha . but nehmind larhs . buy 1st ^^ . buy 11.00am derhs . dhat time jz 10.10am lidat niax . we man man walk around lepak lepak niax lols. nothing do == . ard 10.35am lidat . go buy popcorn dhen went in lurhs . walao . damn cold inside zzz . walao . ii tahan whole movie . came out damn fucking cold ! kao ! . dhen we go MPH . my sis wan buy books for her exams . lmfao . she told me . she bought dhat book . can bring in exam -.- . wdf ? . exam can bring books in ? . kao ! . so shuang mehhs ?! . 1st time heard siol . rofls . okokay . ii continue xD . went in MPH . ii beh tahan liao ! . call my sis gimi wear her jacket . ii reali damn fucking cold . dhen we read books dere for ard 1 and a half hrs lidat ? dhen go mac buy french fries . dhen went in for 2nd movie . gosh . my cold haven gone -.- . still go in agn . reali cold die me siax .. tahan for another 2 hrs ! omg ! ii came out . walao . gonna freeze liao lorhs LOL . btw guess wert? . we saw Ryan LOL . dhe astro xin xiu dhe ryan xD . haha .

neewayz . ii noe dhis post ii kinda luo suo larhs . lols. xD . but bo bian . dun luo suo . sure short short post . bo syok . write luo suo abit . long abit xD . gtg slp lurhs larhs aiks . nights (: .

yellow :DD . tml holidae wee ~ imma going midvalley watch movies with my sis again ^^ . happpyy ~ we gonna watch dhe .. err .. I love you beth cooper and dhe .. imagine that :D . hehe . my sis changed me . LOL . net spoiled changed me . rofls . ii become a movie addict now >< . almost every week must go watch 1 movie . abuden . feel so weird . like something forgot to do lidat >< . aiks ..

hmm .. dance class change teacher agn .. yeah .. is again -.- .. change to joey laoshi .. also 1 of dhe ECX member . cos gary laoshi participate battle ground again dhis year . wif ECX larhs . and some new members :) . wif a new group name xD . so .. he busy .. no time teach us lurhs . dhen chg teacher lurhs D: . our 4th teacher -_- . zai borhs ? . 2 yrs chged 4 teachers ._. . joey lao shi . nort bad larhs . quite funneh . kinda cute haha . but still kinda strange larh =/ . he's dhe 1st teacher . we can still so active . for dhe 1st class xD . ue noe . normally chg new teacher . 1st class . sure kinda quiet derhs . long liaos oni will ply tgt . but he's dhe 1st teacher . 1st class . we still so active larhs xD . haha .

neewayz . let's talk about dhat sohai . rofls . she damn ' funneh ' . dhat day (wednesday ii think ) she suddenly ask me .

ching pei . ue heard b4 ' hou lian pi ' dhis song? .
nice borhs ?! nice right ?!
very nice ! ii 1st ytd 1st time heard . and ii love it ! so nice ! .
( noob . so long liao derh song now oni 1st time heard zz )
yay yay ! hi-5 ! hi-5 ! dong yu zhe . must support arhs !! . their new album ' tai yang yu ' must go buy arhs ! 26/9 sungai wang . got dhe yu gou ! must go buy arhs ! support dong yu zhe arhs !! :DD . ' tai yang yu ' listen before borh ? . very nice lehhs
listen before jor ! very nice . love it so much . ii got dhis song in my phone jor .
wah .. ue find tio dhis song mehhs ?
find dao arhs . download jor lorhs . put in my fone jor .
O____O ! .
(dhe next day . means thursday)
ching pei . ytd ii go web search . whie cant find tio ' tai yang yu ' dhis song derhs ? .
of cz cant find larhs -.- . zzz

ROFLMFAO ! . ii tot she downloaded and put in her phone jor niax ? . whyie suddenly nid find agn and cant find tio huh ? . lmfao . ii tink she never heard b4 dhis song lorhs . dunnoe still act pro rofls . summore she dun even noe hu is dong yu zhe . still act pro dere -.- . wdh zzz .

my pet all die jor T_T . but ii bought tuut tuut car past few days :D . so cute ~ x3 .

tuut tuut ~~ x3 .


tuut tuut hungry jor D: .


teru teru chair ~ so nice ! .

wah .. past few days weather damn nice siax . abit cold cold lidat . no sun . shuang arhs ! . nice weather to slp niax x] . make me feeel so slpy in class -.- . whn teacher teaching . just feel like wanna sleep ! . lay on dhe table . less dhen 5 mins . can slp jor rofls . xD . but whn teacher nort in class . semangat like hell == . aiks ..

2dae . went giant . wow . met jing yi , pui cheng , ke ni , and a guy damn look like my si kor d lols. xD . ii never chat wif dhem nor say hi to dhem lurhs . cos .. ii dun tink dhey recognise me LOL . so .. ii just don't care larhs aiks . haha .

ii just realise sumthing . ii kinda got fate with joey dhis name == . from dhe 1st day ii met xJoey in maple . ii oni know dhat . got boys name joey too o.o . dhen after dhat . ii met a guy called joey in skul too . dhen . met my dance teacher . joey -.- . swts .

yarh ! . 2dae . NL asked me helped him do math question LOL ! . it's sumting like . home tuition . online tuition lidat larh . damn fun weihs o.o . he call me help him do all dhe exercise . do till perfect . it was like . wow . playing games lidat . some maths game ue noe . so fun ! . make me do till non-stop . wow . no wonder ppl say . online tuition . can helps too :D . reali can helps alort . keep do practice . and it's like playing game lidat . ue wun feel sian . will keep do . cool ! :D .

yellow ! . guess wert ?! . ii think ii saw Chin ?!?!??!! OMFG !! . AHHHHHH ! . just now went subang derhs carefour with my family . dhen dhen ! . use dhe 天桥 to cross dhe road . dhen far far ii saw a guy . wif few girls walk tgt larh . jiu nothing larhs . dhat time . no ppl marhs . and ii nothing do marh . just walk niax . so whn dhey walk pass by us . ii looked at dhem awhile xD . and ii saw dhe guy . damn fucking look like chin man !! gosh . and he don't speak english / chinese / malay / tamil . he speak other country language . idk wert language larhs >< . dunnoe is thai anort larhs . cz just walk pass by niax ? oni heard 2 or 3 words ._. . ii stunned awhile . dhen ii go ask my sis .

ii think ii saw chin !
impossible .
reali ! jz now dhat guy damn look like chin ! ue din saw mehh ?
bo . whr? * turns back *
zao liao larh . he reali damn look like chin ! and he speak other country language !
wert language ?
dunnoe . zhong zhi nort chinese nort english nort malay nort tamil !
impossible larh . chin 12 oni come msia .. summore here is subang carefour -.- he come here for wert?
cheh ue dun let ppl come here walk walk 1 arhs ? .
impossible is him larhs .
he really damn look like chin lehhs ! . and horhs . whn ii look at him . he look at me too . dhe 眼神 just like very paiseh lidat .

F5 ! whyie dun believe me ?! . he reali damn fucking look like chin larhs gosh ! ii gonna siao d ! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !! OMFG OMFG OMFG !!!!! II SAW CHIN ! AHHHHHHHH !!!!! OMFG !!!! xDDDD !! .

btw . ii saw dhis lamp in carefour ~ so cute man ! got clock summore derh . hehe . RM 100 . :S .



neewayz . my sis bought new hp ! ~ nokia 5730 ~ hahahahahha ~ grats ni F3 . her w910i is mine now !! woohoo ~ although is old phone ady . but i'm kinda happy too ! cos ~ ii love it's camera !! ~ xD . hehe .



and horhs ~ 2dae moon so bright ~ so round :D . niceee :DD .


hmps ! . ytd ben lai plan go midvalley watch i love you beth cooper wif my sis derhs ! . ii tot she thurs night online book ticket jor . 1.40pm derhs . dhen after school . ii stand outside dhe skul gate . wait her come fetch me . 12.30pm .. 12.45pm .. 1pm .. 1.15pm .. 1.30 pm .. she haven come -_- . ii was thinking .. shud ii sit lrt back? .. or continue wait her? -.- . later ii go back home jor .. she come .. how ? . ii never bring fone summore -.- . call her she oso wun answer 1 .. so ii bo call . at last . ii bo wait . cz . now 1.30pm jor . go till mv .. oso 2pm liao larh . still nid watch meh ? . so ii go home lurhs . but horhs . ii friday got tuition derhs . and ii told my popo ii got go tuition .. bu ke neng want me stay at skul till 3.15pm derh marhs .. nothing do lehs -.- damn fucking sian 1 lorhs . ii dun care larhs . ii keep walk . keep think reason to bluff my popo =/ . kakaka . clever derhs me of cz tink tio larhs F3 . ii tink dao .. ii tell my popo tuition start at 12.45pm cos puasa .. 1 and a half hr .. 2.15pm end jor . dhen ii forgot tell my sis . so ii sit lrt come home F3 . but dhat time oni 1.30pm .. still qort 45mins -_- . so ii decided sit lrt till taman bahagia .. dhen slowly walk back home ._. . kao ! damn far 1 lorhs zzz . suan liao . man man walk . won't tired d . reach home . ngam ngam 2.30pm kekeke . so pro . lalala ~ xD . of cz . 1st thing is scold my sis ! . ue noe she said wert ?!

fully booked jor . ytd midnite ii told ue jor .
whr qort ? bo heard tio pun ? . whn ii slping ? =.= .
got . ii wake ue up . and tell ue . tml bo go watch jor . ue answer me summore .
answer ue wert ? .
ue ask me zomok dun wan go watch? . ii said fully booked . ue still answer me oo.. dhen slp back .
zzz . ii whr got wake up ? -_- .
got ! ue wake up and answered me ! .
walao ...... wdf?

duh . late ni . go slp 1st . tml oni write other things :D . nights (: .

Heartache

I tell myself things will turn out to be alright
it will be alright
I try my best to ignore your beautiful face
but i keep thinking about how you cared so much about me
but those memories have faded

Sadness and anger puts weight against my back
and I can't help myself
but the glistening tears run down my cheeks
my throat quenches my breathing gets harder
how come you can't see me like you did before
I'm so lost and lonely

I want you near again
like when we were
why did you leave
why did you let go
Before this aching heart gets worse
let me see your face again
before I never see you again...

Razorblade

I'm left here in the corner to sit and cry
But right now all I wanna do is die.
I look at my hands, they are covered in the blood
That is pouring from my wrists like a never-ending flood.
I pick up my blade and cut deep
Because of the promises you never keep.
You have left me broken and alone
Your heart was cold and made of stone.
Is there a way to mend this broken heart
That has just been ripped apart?
The only comfort that I find
And the only way to get the pain off my mind
Is to sharpen my blade and pierce my skin
Until the bleeding begins.
My razorblade is my closest friend
And one day, it will bring my life to an end.

all of this pain

all of this pain,
its killing me

i wish i could drain
the pain
but its always the same
nothings ever gonna change

no matter how hard i try
i cant forget about the lies
and it makes me want to die
but i try, and i try, and i try

to forget the past
why didnt it last?
it all went by so fast

it was surely love
like a gift from above
and all i wanted to do was love

i lay here crying alone
the truth chills me to the bone
but now its all gone

i want to get over you
i just dont think i can get through
this...

all of this pain,
its killing me

Little siver razor blade

tears run my face
like a razor blade down my arm
I try so hard to not do it
as your words ripped through my heart
You said that you loved me
how could you lie
After all we've been through
after how hard we tried
and all the scars down my arms
don't worry about me
its just my way to remind me
of my broken heart
and how bad it hurts
tattered and torn
beaten and broken
bruised cut and scared

The Girl in the Mirror

there's a girl in the mirror
she's crying tonight
and nothing i say
will make her all right
i ask her what's wrong
she said it's her heart
it's broken and torn
it rips her apart
i look a little later
i'm scared of my find
she's cut up her wrists
she's out of her mind
i'm deep in my dreams
and what do i see
the girl's lying dead
and the girl is me

If I Could Dream at Night

If I could dream at night
and if those dreams came true
i would force myself to sleep at night
so i could dream of you

If wishes were given to lonely guys,
and if i were given just two
i would wish that you would always love me
the other i would give to you

if my tears could write love songs
Before my tears were through
you would know just how i feel
and how much i love you

But dreams are for dreamers
and wishes seldom come true
my tears do not write love songs
but when they fall....they fall for you.

Deathwish

Love? What a useless word...
I thought love was happiness
but in the end it become my worst enemy
that's what love is: a deathwish!

Fading Scar Tissue

All i have left
is faded scar tissue,
that is the result
of the pain you have caused.
my scarred skin echoes
my scarred heart.
the skin that covers me is nothing
more than a protective coating,
a protective coating that will heal in time.
i may hurt myself purposely
but eventually i'll heal.
and all i have left to show my pain,
is fading scar tissue.
that one day, will be gone.

You're the reason

You're the reason blood runs down my arm,
You're the reason I've turned to self-harm
You're the reason I don't sleep at night
You're the reason I'll never be right
You're the reason I'm left all alone
You're the reason I stare at the phone
You're the reason for my broken heart
You're the reason it's left in two parts
You're the reason the world has turned gray
You're the reason that I feel this way
You're the reason I tried suicide
You're the reason that I have to hide
You're the reason I cannot love
You're the reason I fell from above
You're the reason I got shot down
And you'll be the reason that I'm left to drown.

You Said You Loved Me

You said you loved me
It's because of you that I bleed
Razor in hand
It's the blood that I need.

When you said you loved me
I promised I'd stop
But you walked out and left
So I watch the blood drop.

The relief I require
Lies only in pain
Slice every inch of my body
Again and again.

I want you to see
The pain that I feel
But you barely notice
The blood which is real.

As the blood runs away
Into the plughole of black
I'm still here cutting
Finding feelings I lack.

You shattered my heart
And the scars do not fade
I look at my arms
And the sharp razor blade.

I glance at your picture
At your golden brown hair
We were such a couple
We were such a cute pair.

And now you are happy
But me, I'm still bleeding
You unaware
Of the love that I'm needing.

I want to show you
What missing you does to me
But to you I'm a memory
And you'll never see.

Dead Love You Said

dead love, you said
you said you fell in love with another girl
you said our love was dead
but how can it be dead when i still love you,
still feel something for you

you left me in the dark that day
my heart telling me that it still loved you
it bled, hurt as though it were dying,
knowing that you weren't coming back
was what hurt me the most

i tried to forget you
but how can i
remembering the memories we made
now i feel alone, cold, and depressed

feeling dark always
darkness and night are the only things
that conceal my love
you still linger in my heart
dead love, you said
and i cried that night.

The Pain...

It hurts more than the cuts,
That I forced on myself,
More than the bruises,
Due to my own accord,
More than the tears,
Streaming down my face,
I never thought this'd happen,
An awful heartbreak...

For, you poured your love on me,
Like a shower of joy,
You made me feel special,
My special boy,
I wish you were still here,
But it's not your fault,
This heartbreak you caused,
I shall blame myself for...

It makes me feel better,
To believe you're not mean,
I blame myself,
And you can blame me,
For if you don't love me,
I'll hurt myself more,
For being a bad girlfriend,
The way I was before...

Apart But Not Forgotten

Tell him I don’t ever want to see him again
Tell him he meant nothing to me
Tell him I never loved him
Tell him I won’t miss him at all
But please don’t tell him
I said all this with tears in my eyes.

Love and Lies

When someone says that they love you still want to be with you,
but go off and date someone else,
what do you call that?

Love and Lies.

Because You still love them.
And don't want to believe the Lies.

That Girl

Why am I that girl?
The one in the corner,
The one no one cares about,
The one crying out.
Why are you that boy?
The one who breaks my heart.

I Cut Myself

I cut myself to feel the pain,
that he has given me,
I cut myself to cover the tears,
that are streaming down my face,
I cut myself to feel alive,
for once in my life.

Rain Rain Don't Ever Go Away

The only consistent thing in my life
Is the rain.
The dark clouds,
and the crashing lightning.
When I’m crying you can’t tell
And before I come back
It washes away the pain,
It washes away my tears,
I come back in,
And the pain comes back.

Your Lies of Love

You said you loved me,
you said it was true.
All the lies you told I believed.
You're gone now.
My world is crushed.
There's nowhere to turn.
I stay awake countless nights,
waiting for you to say you're sorry
but all I ever see is a black hole calling my name.
I've been shoved down, thrown to the bottom,
treated like nothing.
My tears are my blood and soon I'll be dead,
then you'll have your wish.

The love we shared was true,
but you betrayed me like no other.

Enemy and Victim

love is the enemy,
the heart is the victim
Tears are the blood
and the blood is the tears
You ripped my heart
and I lost the pieces
I said i love you
You said good-bye

You are the enemy
i am the victim
i am the blood
the tears
and the heart

You are the one with
the gun
the knife
and the words...

You Lied

you said you loved me
but you hurt me

you said you cared for me
but you ignored me

you said you trust me
but you don't believe me

you said you'll be with me
but you left me

you said, I'll be the one
but you have another one

how long do i have to cover this pain
whenever i see you, i feel more pain

Emo Love

You told me you will love me,
But you broke your promise.
You made me wait in the dark all alone.
You left me without a reason.
You told me I wasn't yours.
You made my heart full of hope.
And just broke it with a "sorry."
Maybe you thought sorry would cure my heart
But it didn't,
The scar will always be there, no matter what.

Love, just another four letter word for liar.