Heartache

I tell myself things will turn out to be alright
it will be alright
I try my best to ignore your beautiful face
but i keep thinking about how you cared so much about me
but those memories have faded

Sadness and anger puts weight against my back
and I can't help myself
but the glistening tears run down my cheeks
my throat quenches my breathing gets harder
how come you can't see me like you did before
I'm so lost and lonely

I want you near again
like when we were
why did you leave
why did you let go
Before this aching heart gets worse
let me see your face again
before I never see you again...

Razorblade

I'm left here in the corner to sit and cry
But right now all I wanna do is die.
I look at my hands, they are covered in the blood
That is pouring from my wrists like a never-ending flood.
I pick up my blade and cut deep
Because of the promises you never keep.
You have left me broken and alone
Your heart was cold and made of stone.
Is there a way to mend this broken heart
That has just been ripped apart?
The only comfort that I find
And the only way to get the pain off my mind
Is to sharpen my blade and pierce my skin
Until the bleeding begins.
My razorblade is my closest friend
And one day, it will bring my life to an end.

all of this pain

all of this pain,
its killing me

i wish i could drain
the pain
but its always the same
nothings ever gonna change

no matter how hard i try
i cant forget about the lies
and it makes me want to die
but i try, and i try, and i try

to forget the past
why didnt it last?
it all went by so fast

it was surely love
like a gift from above
and all i wanted to do was love

i lay here crying alone
the truth chills me to the bone
but now its all gone

i want to get over you
i just dont think i can get through
this...

all of this pain,
its killing me

Little siver razor blade

tears run my face
like a razor blade down my arm
I try so hard to not do it
as your words ripped through my heart
You said that you loved me
how could you lie
After all we've been through
after how hard we tried
and all the scars down my arms
don't worry about me
its just my way to remind me
of my broken heart
and how bad it hurts
tattered and torn
beaten and broken
bruised cut and scared

The Girl in the Mirror

there's a girl in the mirror
she's crying tonight
and nothing i say
will make her all right
i ask her what's wrong
she said it's her heart
it's broken and torn
it rips her apart
i look a little later
i'm scared of my find
she's cut up her wrists
she's out of her mind
i'm deep in my dreams
and what do i see
the girl's lying dead
and the girl is me

If I Could Dream at Night

If I could dream at night
and if those dreams came true
i would force myself to sleep at night
so i could dream of you

If wishes were given to lonely guys,
and if i were given just two
i would wish that you would always love me
the other i would give to you

if my tears could write love songs
Before my tears were through
you would know just how i feel
and how much i love you

But dreams are for dreamers
and wishes seldom come true
my tears do not write love songs
but when they fall....they fall for you.

Deathwish

Love? What a useless word...
I thought love was happiness
but in the end it become my worst enemy
that's what love is: a deathwish!

Fading Scar Tissue

All i have left
is faded scar tissue,
that is the result
of the pain you have caused.
my scarred skin echoes
my scarred heart.
the skin that covers me is nothing
more than a protective coating,
a protective coating that will heal in time.
i may hurt myself purposely
but eventually i'll heal.
and all i have left to show my pain,
is fading scar tissue.
that one day, will be gone.

You're the reason

You're the reason blood runs down my arm,
You're the reason I've turned to self-harm
You're the reason I don't sleep at night
You're the reason I'll never be right
You're the reason I'm left all alone
You're the reason I stare at the phone
You're the reason for my broken heart
You're the reason it's left in two parts
You're the reason the world has turned gray
You're the reason that I feel this way
You're the reason I tried suicide
You're the reason that I have to hide
You're the reason I cannot love
You're the reason I fell from above
You're the reason I got shot down
And you'll be the reason that I'm left to drown.

You Said You Loved Me

You said you loved me
It's because of you that I bleed
Razor in hand
It's the blood that I need.

When you said you loved me
I promised I'd stop
But you walked out and left
So I watch the blood drop.

The relief I require
Lies only in pain
Slice every inch of my body
Again and again.

I want you to see
The pain that I feel
But you barely notice
The blood which is real.

As the blood runs away
Into the plughole of black
I'm still here cutting
Finding feelings I lack.

You shattered my heart
And the scars do not fade
I look at my arms
And the sharp razor blade.

I glance at your picture
At your golden brown hair
We were such a couple
We were such a cute pair.

And now you are happy
But me, I'm still bleeding
You unaware
Of the love that I'm needing.

I want to show you
What missing you does to me
But to you I'm a memory
And you'll never see.

Dead Love You Said

dead love, you said
you said you fell in love with another girl
you said our love was dead
but how can it be dead when i still love you,
still feel something for you

you left me in the dark that day
my heart telling me that it still loved you
it bled, hurt as though it were dying,
knowing that you weren't coming back
was what hurt me the most

i tried to forget you
but how can i
remembering the memories we made
now i feel alone, cold, and depressed

feeling dark always
darkness and night are the only things
that conceal my love
you still linger in my heart
dead love, you said
and i cried that night.

The Pain...

It hurts more than the cuts,
That I forced on myself,
More than the bruises,
Due to my own accord,
More than the tears,
Streaming down my face,
I never thought this'd happen,
An awful heartbreak...

For, you poured your love on me,
Like a shower of joy,
You made me feel special,
My special boy,
I wish you were still here,
But it's not your fault,
This heartbreak you caused,
I shall blame myself for...

It makes me feel better,
To believe you're not mean,
I blame myself,
And you can blame me,
For if you don't love me,
I'll hurt myself more,
For being a bad girlfriend,
The way I was before...

Apart But Not Forgotten

Tell him I don’t ever want to see him again
Tell him he meant nothing to me
Tell him I never loved him
Tell him I won’t miss him at all
But please don’t tell him
I said all this with tears in my eyes.

Love and Lies

When someone says that they love you still want to be with you,
but go off and date someone else,
what do you call that?

Love and Lies.

Because You still love them.
And don't want to believe the Lies.

That Girl

Why am I that girl?
The one in the corner,
The one no one cares about,
The one crying out.
Why are you that boy?
The one who breaks my heart.

I Cut Myself

I cut myself to feel the pain,
that he has given me,
I cut myself to cover the tears,
that are streaming down my face,
I cut myself to feel alive,
for once in my life.

Rain Rain Don't Ever Go Away

The only consistent thing in my life
Is the rain.
The dark clouds,
and the crashing lightning.
When I’m crying you can’t tell
And before I come back
It washes away the pain,
It washes away my tears,
I come back in,
And the pain comes back.

Your Lies of Love

You said you loved me,
you said it was true.
All the lies you told I believed.
You're gone now.
My world is crushed.
There's nowhere to turn.
I stay awake countless nights,
waiting for you to say you're sorry
but all I ever see is a black hole calling my name.
I've been shoved down, thrown to the bottom,
treated like nothing.
My tears are my blood and soon I'll be dead,
then you'll have your wish.

The love we shared was true,
but you betrayed me like no other.

Enemy and Victim

love is the enemy,
the heart is the victim
Tears are the blood
and the blood is the tears
You ripped my heart
and I lost the pieces
I said i love you
You said good-bye

You are the enemy
i am the victim
i am the blood
the tears
and the heart

You are the one with
the gun
the knife
and the words...

You Lied

you said you loved me
but you hurt me

you said you cared for me
but you ignored me

you said you trust me
but you don't believe me

you said you'll be with me
but you left me

you said, I'll be the one
but you have another one

how long do i have to cover this pain
whenever i see you, i feel more pain

Emo Love

You told me you will love me,
But you broke your promise.
You made me wait in the dark all alone.
You left me without a reason.
You told me I wasn't yours.
You made my heart full of hope.
And just broke it with a "sorry."
Maybe you thought sorry would cure my heart
But it didn't,
The scar will always be there, no matter what.

Love, just another four letter word for liar.