Your Lies

Funny when things never change
Even when you say they will
But while your off s(rewing her
My life is standing still

You tell me that you love me
When I go to leave
You tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe

I know that you are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that you don't love me
I know I'm just for show

I don't know If I can stand
To see you love another girl
You know that you broke my heart
You know that your my world

But while your standing by my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together .

Lies Hurt

he said he'll never leave you
he said he'll always stay
he said you'll be together forever
yet, he ended it that day.

that one day, when everything changed
when everything went wrong
the day you cried for hours and hours
telling yourself, you should have known all along.

the day you forgot the meaning of life
when your heart broke and died
the day you realized how pathetic you were
for believing all those lies.


How Could You ?

When a boy breaks a girl, it does more than just break her heart
She loves you with all her heart but you left her
How could you do that?
Each night she cries all alone
Her heart breaks even more as memories flow through her head
And every time she looks in her phone
She sees your number and cries harder
As she looks at her favorite, the tears fall faster
She knows those times will never come again
She needs you more than you know
You were the only good thing in her life
The girl cries and take out a knife
She says that there is no point in life
That nobody cares.
And nobody's there.
She takes the knife to her wrist
Her wounds begin to bleed
Her hand curls into a fist
And tears roll down her cheeks
She cuts some more to forget you
But when it never works
The pain from her wrist,
And the pain from her heart which is broken in two
Feels like murder: her soul has died
And the only thing to bring it back
Is if you will be always and forever by her side
But you left her.
You did more than break a girl
You killed her with the shards of her own heart
How could you?

Dying Inside

She feels so alone, with no one to hold,
She hides all her thoughts, pretends to be bold.
No one knows, how she feels each night.
No one knows how close she is to losing this fight.

She sits alone, in her little room,
With the blade in her hand, trying to erase all her gloom.
The scars can't be seen, she tries her best to hide.
No one ever knows, how she's really feeling inside.

She feels confused, why do they treat her like dirt?
She doesn't understand, why she's always getting hurt.
No matter what she does, no matter how hard she tries,
She always seems to fall and believe all their lies.

She can't seem to understand, what has she done?
She thought it was worth it, but this hasn't been fun.
She has thoughts of ending, her messed up life,
But how would they feel, knowing she had turned to the knife?

She feels like suicide, is the only escape,
How can she explain, that around her a black cloud has begun to drape.
She's lost in this world, with nothing to do but let go,
How can she hold on, when she lost herself so long ago.

She can't explain, why she feels this way,
All she knows is, so can no longer stay.
She hates herself, pure destruction at risk,
So why not end it before someone sees the scars upon her wrists.

Self-hatred has come over her, no longer can she pretend,
How can she love herself, when all she wants is the end?
She doesn't know why, there's no way to explain,
What could cause someone to hate herself, and want to cause herself such pain?

There's a puzzle in her head, she's too afraid to admit,
If she puts the pieces back together, will she realize that this is it?
Could depression be the reason? That this black cloud has started to follow,
Made her feel so worthless, so destructive and so hollow?


You're Not Sorry

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around.
I've been giving out chances every time,
And all you do is let me down.

And it's taking me this long,
Baby but I've figured you out,
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around.

You don't have to call anymore,
I won't pick up the phone.
This is the last straw,
Don't wanna hurt anymore...

And you can say that you're sorry,
But I don't believe you, baby,
Like I did before.
You're not sorry..

Love Hurts

Sometimes,
I just want to run away from my life
and the only way I know how to get out of the pain
is cutting myself.
Sometimes the pain is so deep
that I would just rather rip out my own heart
than have to suffer anymore.
I've considered just ending it all quickly and getting it over.

Love and Deception

I lost because I trusted
I trusted because I believed
In all those Lies you told me...
I loved, and you
Deceived.

What No One Knows

I pull on my hoody
flip up the hood
hide my scars
hide my pain
it is my protection
sleeves to wipe away my tears
before anyone sees them

so many questions
but no answers
lies upon lies
untold history
of a broken home
yelling and screaming
precious things being thrown
people being broken

you broke my body
you took my hope
but yet here i stand
stronger then ever
and at other times
weak as can be

My Pain

my heart is filled with pain
i need to let it out
it hurts so bad
i need to let it flow out
i want to be happy
i want the pain to flow out of my arms
like red wine.
red is the color of death, pain, hurt.
i want to let that painful color flow out
i want to see it on the floor.
i want to see it stain the carpet.
you made me feel this way.
all the lies, all the secrets!
this is what you've done.
this is the pain you've caused.
are you happy now?
do you have this pain?

Screaming, Crying, Bleeding

A waterfall of tears
A fountain of blood
a razor in her hand
pain in her heart
her music blasting & she's screaming
this is a story of a girl's everyday life
cursed with regret & choices she's made
she screws everything up can't do anything right
cries herself to sleep every night
cuts deeper and deeper every time
Right now she's wishing her wrists were bleeding
sure she acts like everything's ok

But.....

shes really pondering thoughts of suicide
& imagining the edge of her knife slicing her skin
she can even smell the blood
you've never known
she's had you all fooled
but what if she opened up to you
and told you the truth
cut the fake smiles and showed you every bruise
told you her plan of suicide, showed you her knife
would you still be her friend, or would you turn around and run?
or are you one who has the nerve to judge and tell her she's wrong?
if so are you gonna judge me, i'm tired of hiding.
yes this is the story of my life
every time i've said i was fine i lied, every time i smiled, it was fake
so what do you think?
Am I wrong, right, crazy, or sick? tell me what you really think.
I'm a lost cause there's nothing that can save me
This is the story of my life, now tell me
did you take the time to get to know me or did you straight up judge me?
Or are you still there holding on and never letting go
if so let me know you'll be one of a few
now you've listened to my confession tell me yours
i'm here and ready to listen
and yes my wrists will be bleeding
bleeding for the pain you're going through
bleeding for others who don't have a voice.
bleeding for everyone in pain tonight.
bleeding for all who are wishing to die.
just turn up your music & start screaming, crying and bleeding